pepsi: nectar of the gods

Although DJ Etan and I have fairly different tastes, I'm certain we both feel that our days and nights are sculpted and defined by music. While rampant customer stupidity and the feeling that all of management has head-up-ass syndrom wears my sanity thin, my saving graces are chatting with my crazy talented-intelligent cool friends and listening to music. When you work somewhere for four years and you listen to music at least six hours a day, a substantial collection of albums is necessary. My favorite thing to do is to make my own mix cds. It's a rather therapeutic experience when I sit down at my computer and choose 16-20 of my favorite songs, carefully selected for their compatibility. Some of them have a specific theme and some are so random that they actually create their own mood. Here is my most recent mix and my favorite snippet from each song.

Happy Thanksgiving: You Will Never Know Me

Track 1: Sullen Girl by Fiona Apple
they don't know i used to sail the deep and tranquil sea but he washed me shore and he took my pearl and left an empty shell of me and there's too much going on but it's calm under the waves in the blue of my oblivion

Track 2: Unchained Melody by The Righteous Brothers
i've hungered for your touch alone lonely times and time goes by so slowly and time can do so much are you still mine i need your love god speed your love to me

Track 3: Walk Me Home by Mandy Moore
i hold your picture next to my heart all the time you're my dream come true so glad you're mine and i wondered how it would be if i was your lady and you were my friend

Track 4: In the Arms of Sleep by The Smashing Pumpkins
and i'll always need her more than she could ever need me i need someone to ease my mind but sometimes a someone is so hard to find and i'll do anything to keep her here tonight and i'll say anything to make her feel alright and i'll be anything to keep her here tonight because i want you to stay with me i need you tonight

Track 5: Morning in a Bar by Bree Sharp
morning in a bar daylight in an old beer bottle the sun's the only star in a sky that went from blue to yellow and the flashes of the scene i'd made just the night before and the ashes of my great my undoing lay scattered on the floor

Track 6: Starter by The Cardigans
this is the age when my past should be gone but it's just stronger than the aims i have turning the pages i used to hang on to i was young and i have changed my mind and i'm leaving everything behind

Track 7: It's a Moutherfucker by The Eels
it's a motherfucker getting through a sunday talking to the walls just me again but i won't ever be the same i won't ever be the same it's motherfucker how much i understand the feeling that you need someone to take you by the hand and you won't ever be the same

Track 8: Worthy Of by Justin Timberlake
i constantly fight my insecurities when i can't reach by phone and oh lord knows that i'm only human so please forgive me if i ask so many silly questions i know that you truly love me but fear has me second guessing am i worthy of

Track 9: Petals by Mariah Carey
and i missed a lot of life but i'll recover though i know you really like to see me suffer still i wish that you and i'd forgive each other 'cause i miss you valentine and really loved you

Track10: Everlong by Foo Fighters
breathe out so i can breathe you in hold you in and now i know you've always been out of your head out of my head i sang and i wonder when i sing along with you if everything could ever be this real forever

Track11: Angel by Sarah McLachlan
there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day i need some distraction oh beautiful release memories seep from my veins let me be emtpy oh or weightless then maybe i'd find some peace tonight

Track12: Where Did you Sleep Last Night by Nirvana
my girl my girl don't lie to me tell me where did you sleep last night in the pines in the pines where the sun don't ever shine i would shiver the whole night through

Track13: Jupiter's Lament by The Smashing Pumpkins
no one knows i can't be wrong so i'll sing the same old song i tried to be strong for you why have you left me amongst the tall trees i know i gave her all i have

Track14: The Way You Look Tonight by Elton John
i need to tell you how you light up every second of the day that in the moonlight you just shine like a beacon of the bay and i can't explain but there's something about the way you look tonight take's my breath away

Track15: One More Try by Timmy T
it's been a long time since i've kissed you it always used to feel so good and if you knew how much i missed you you'd forgive me if you could and now that we have found each other can't we give it one more try

Track16: One More Try by George Michael
so if you love me say you love me but if you don't just let me go 'cause teacher there are things that i don't want to learn and the last one i had made me cry so i don't want to learn to hold you touch you think that you're mine

Track17: It Must Have Been Love by Roxette
make-believing we're together that i'm sheltered by your heart but in and outside i've turned to water like a teardrop in your palm and it's a hard winters day i dream away it must have been love but it's over now

Track18: Tear in Your Hand by Tori Amos
i don't believe you're leaving because me and charles manson like the same ice cream i think it's that girl and i think there are pieces of me you've never seen maybe she's just pieces of me you've never seen

Track19: That's Me by Tara McLean
caught on the floor now this bottle in my hand in the confusion it seemed the safest place to land now i can't stand 'cause everytime i'd think of you i'd start to cry well not this time and if you see me you will know that the years went by and they weren't kind